The Calling To Awake

In September of 2022 I started a new journey. It was time apart from everything I had known. I moved into a frog studio of a dear friend and former neighbor. She was allowing me the time and space to regain some strength and rebuild a business, in return for help on the farm. Mrs. B, has always been a seeker of broken souls. She takes in just about any wounded animal or human. Even in her elderly age she constantly gives her time, energy, home, and land to reach those within her community. I’m very thankful for my mentor and the faith and encouragement she gave me and many others. Our world would be a different place if there were more like her. I had been feeling a major shift in my personal and spiritual life and by November of 2022 I knew what had been laid on my heart to accomplish. So much so that I posted a headline on Facebook to remind myself that two years from that date that God’s promises would be fulfilled. Then I saw the listing for an old home in need of a lot of restorat...

Chapter 5 12.23’ The Adoption Story According to the Adoption Network US Adoption Stats, currently read: (2022 US Adoption Attitudes Survey; Adoption by the numbers, 2022) ~Currently there are around 5 million adopted Americans. ~In 2019 there were approximately 115,353 adoptions. ~In 2016 noted a near 49% non Mexican, white infant or child adoptions. 25% were non white adoptions. The African American adoptions out of foster care is apparently, “disproportionately represented”. ~26-29% make it out of long term foster care before aging out at 18. ~391,000 children are in foster care on an average day in our modern day era. In 2022 nearly 214,000 children ENTERED into foster care. 70% of those are infants.   ~In 2023 federal funding for all that encumbers the foster care program totaled 10.6 billion dollars. ~According to NSAP 75% of adopted children under the age 5 are read or sang to everyday. ~Birthparents get a surprisingly bad rap. Most birthmothers are between 25-35. Close to 1...

Chapter 4 3.11.23' Seclusion and Solace I have secluded myself away this year. I call my parents every couple of weeks. My grown son and I try and Zoom weekly, but sometimes that doesn’t work out. I have missed him deeply and was thankful to be able to drive out to see him last week. Just about the only human interaction I've had in the past year has been with my elderly former neighbor, turned landlord. She invited me back to the area for the year so that I could rebuild and gain some insight and strength. My former neighbor turned landlord is a godly and wonderful mentor. I am so thankful for her guidance, understanding, and spiritual nature.  Bills and responsibilities still had to be met. I had no idea how I would make ends meet and He indeed was faithful in providing me enough to survive this past year. I find myself unable to trust man’s ideology and theology any longer. If you received Chapter 3 - you may understand why it would be hard for me and others to do. My entire...

Chapter 3 4.8.19' A Letter From Eva Dear Mr. Kurtson, I wanted to reach out to thank you for sitting with me in that pew on a Thursday, 3.21.2019. Words cannot express what all took place for me that day, but then again I tend to be a long winded writer, so I’ll give it a shot. It had been about 18 years since I stepped foot onto the grounds of CCC. To my surprise, someone was walking out of the double doors of the church, so I was able to walk in without paging the front desk. The hallways were clear. I could hear talking in the main office, but didn’t see anyone, & I didn’t wait around to be seen. I made my way down the steps that lead to the dark entry way to the sanctuary. Once through the doors, I stopped in my tracks. My eyes needed to adjust to the complete darkness of what was already a very frightening place. This being an institution myself and many others may never feel safe in again. I stood there a minute until I could feel my feet again and willed myself to the th...